Happybunni21's Datingish

Update..... lol nothing really

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 02:50:33 GMT

Well hello Datingish!

Nothing new has been going on in my life lately. Only thing I could think of relationship wise is, "Wow.... we're still together" Shockingly. Only issues lately is that his birthdays on Valentines day and well.... that's my dilemma I guess. What do you get your so whose birthday is on Valentines day? Do you even get to share the day by getting a gift as well since it is Valentines day? Or do you give the whole day up for that one person you love and just make your own "Personal Valentines" day? Do you give 2 gifts? Or one big gift? I'm so lost and ugh. Then there's the whole issue of me going to graduate school so its up in the air of knowing where I go. Hopefully somewhere on the West coast. And if he's coming along or not. I'm nervous and want him to just come with me but then again, I understand him staying here to "finish" things. I hope things workout in the best way possible. And if I have to go out there alone then I have to go out there alone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

Mon, 01 Dec 2008 13:27:26 GMT

Like always my luvly fatman gets it right before all my "friends" do. I always wanted a party. One just for me. I always did things for my friends or went ot things for them just as support and to celebrate with them. AND YET for 6 years since all of us being 18 I got nothing. NOTHING at all. The most I got were balloons. And you wouldn't believe how excited I was for that. This year, I decided ahead of time to do something for me. Which was a ticket to Avenue Q the broadway play. Being that I did announce it a couple of times to my friend I was being stupid to assume that maybe one of these chicks would volunteer to join me and buy their own ticket. NOT BUY MINE AND THEIRS but just to buy one period to enjoy it with me on my special day. Obviously when the time came to buy it, no one did. Not too surprising but very very aggrevating. So while eating dinner with fatman after buying my ticket I was livid. Not at him for always being so kind and caring and always there like that evening. But just for the fact that once again, like everything else, I had to do my birthday on my own. So once the day came he decided that we should have gotten dressed up and enjoyed the play together. I was so angry that he decided to take the time out to enjoy it with me because he shouldn't have. I mean, I've only known him less than 2 years and he's picked up the slack that my friends have left behind in more ways than one. SO the play was awesome and what made me even more happier was the fact that it was his first play ad he had a good time which made me happy. Knowing he wasn't bored was very very exciting. SO after the play he decided that we should go to Olive Garden cause he wanted a plate of food to take home to his mother. Now, really in my head, it was like, "A plate..... for your mother? TODAY OUT OF ALL DAYS OR WEEKENDS?!?!!" But me having the mother complex its like, yes ma'am. So First he wants to go to Virgin Megastore to get a CD that he wanted. Me being starving and in heels, not a good combo, did not want to wait for food any longer but something told me to just be nice to him since he was being so kind as to come with me to a play this evening. So once we got upstairs I noticed some person had some really big birthday balloons and that got me even more angry because its my own birthday and someone else is getting a great time while I am too but it's just not feeling right. So walking past the table he turned me around very quickly and I noticed that the table was for me and that there were a couple of my friends and his cousin and his wife there. Long story of the evening short, I had a wonderful time all in thanks to him and his thoughts and planning. AND FOR FINALLY SOMEONE GETTING THE THOUGHT. I LOVE HIM more and more even though we have a lot of problems. I'm hoping we can get through it because of all the issues we've had he's worth the fight. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. FINALLY.

Loooonnnnng time no..... write.

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 00:32:44 GMT

HEEEYYYYY Everyone!!!!!!

Izzi the luvly Pixxi here to give you all a update on my oh so strange life. I want to start on the basis of my friend. She has got herself a new bf. She's only known him 2 months but she believes that since he asked to meet her parents that it would be a good thing to do. Some of you would think, hey! that's not a bad idea. But my question is, if you live with very strict parents that call to make sure you're home by midnight at the age of 23, is that really going to put you in the best spotlight when you tell them you're dating a 30 year old man that has his own place and his own car!? THe issue at hand is, her parents are kool with it now. But I know how her mother is and the minute they she meets him and finds out his basics, it'll be a wrap for my friend and the grip they have on her now will only get tighter. BUT it's all on her because she believes they're going to see how responsible he is and think of her as responsible as well. (Completely wrong since it's a traditional family from another country) So, my question to you guys for this situation would be, do you have a right to call yourself grown when you just started dating a 30 year old man but you still live in your parents house and do not pay your own bills and are even told when to go home?

Situation no. 2. This one girl was once dealing with this guy. He was younger then her by like 3 years. So at 19 a guy isn't really looking for a relationship. She, even though she isn't either supposedly, lives in a fantasy that maybe if I show him how good we would be that maybe he would just love me. Hence, SURPRISE SURPRISe he will come and visit NYC! SO he does and she shows him around. While letting all of us leave, she decides to stay. After having a couple of drinks and being around the guy of your dreams who is in that mind set of FREE SEX!!! HELL YAA!!!! Well we can all put 1 and 1 together. He leaves her for another girl moves in with the girl who later on ends up cheating on him so he moves back out and voila my friend writes a letter saying, "I hate you but love you and yes I did intend to get pregnant to keep you with me."

My world of relationships..... well........ Still with a fatguy and still having issues here and there BUT I am having a birthday in 20 days and cannot wait for it to start because I have the luvly opportunity to go see Avenue Q with him and evne though I really wanted my friends to join me, he being the great boyfriend offered to go and once again, in my opinion, picked up the pieces and will still help me have a great birthday.

Dimples..... cute or sexy?

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 04:05:46 GMT

It will be 2 years of knowing this fatman in my life and yet, I'm not exactly sure as to what I would call this. Is it still new in some people's eyes or is it long enough to know about the person. I mean a lot of people tend to get engaged after this amount of time but then again, this is a new generation so who knows. I know 2 years is nothing in comparison of how long I know my "good" friends but then again,those are friends. Now do I call the fatman a friend, of course. But since there is a bit more "involved" with this friendship lol can I say I know him more than them? Hope you readers are getting what I'm talking about kind of. If not it's kool.

My question for the day has nothing to do with relationship, though you all know there's something always going on in that department. My question is about attraction. Dimples. WHAT IS SO.... whatever ABOUT THEM?! Whatever meaning, cute, sexy, adorable, childlike??!!? TWICE this week I was commented on it and I generally don't like it because I feel like I don't have that womanly touch thanks to them. I feel like dimples aren't very..... sexy. First it was my boss.
Boss: "So Izzi, how you like the job so far?"
Me: "It's alright."
Boss: "That's good. Are you okay? Would you like a bottle water or anything?"
Me: "No thanks. I'm good."
Boss: "Okay. And you Deidra, how you holding up? You need a martini or anything?"
Me: "WHOA WHOA WHOA THERE!?!?! If I knew you were offering alcoholic beverages then I'd take that."
Boss: "Oh, I didn't know you were able to drink...."
Me: "I'm 23"
Boss: "Really!? With that face and those dimples you look 19."

THEN IN SITUATION 2 AT WORK AGAIN....
Co-worker Claire: "You know I remember being young. But these days... everythings just too complicated for you guys."
Me: just randomnly laughing cause I don't know where she came from with that comment and why she's telling it to me.
Co-worker Claire: "OooOOOoOooooohhh look at that!!!!! You have the cutest dimple!!! It's so precious." (begins poking her finger IN MY DIMPLE!!!!!!)

PLEASE, SOMEONE, TELL ME WHAT WHAT WHAT IS THIS FASCINATION!!!! I've tried Googling the history and wondering what and why!!!!! Honestly there was no option in running away from this. Both my parents have them so I couldn't run away if I tried. I'll admit in photos of my mom even she looks childish when she smiles. But WHY!??!?!!!!

If you have dimples do you like them? Do you think they are an attractive feature in someone? Can they be sexy? Or will they always fall in the "cute" factor??? Cause I don't want to be "cute" at 45.

YAY!!!!!!!! For Saturday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 15:31:27 GMT

So I woke up with a migraine.... Nothing a nice excedrine and some soda can't fix! :) I get to watch a football game today and eat junk food in the stands out of Manhattan!!!!! :) Anywhere but there is fine with me. Yes, we are an island that has the crossroads of the world and so much "major items and sights" but please!!!!!! This place gets so boring it's just disgusting. And the pricing?!!?! I'm NOT a tourist! I should be able to pay normal pricing if there's such a thing. Can't really go shopping unless you know the good spots. And even that's a bit hard to find cause everyone out of Manhattan in this city wants to keep it to them self. I don't have a car so I use the subway which in my opinion is a whole lot more sufficient. And then there's the factor of trying to find different food to eat. At a good price. lol Yea... OK! N e poop. What sucks about this place is that I really believe every single couple goes to the same ole' 42nd st area EVERY WEEKEND!!!! Nothings new there though. I mean, the same old "artists" and "photographers" trying to show you their "new" or cool stuff. And these people could see you week after week and they'll STILL try to offer it to you. But I go. I go, enjoy, laugh and laugh because it's just so funny to see these people falling for these tricks and prices. AND YES! VIRGIN MEGASTORE COSTS TOO MUCH TOO!!!!!! But it's another Saturday for me and I'm excited.

I'm pondering.... again.......

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 02:48:01 GMT

So today was an OK kind of day. Went to work, evening shift, and got back to the residence an hour ago. Chillin here reading my luvly romance novel and eating some Milano cookies. :) Ecstasy. And I remembered being somewhat silly yesterday, and asking mr. fatman if he would marry me. I wanted to see what it felt like cause I find it really gutsy for guys to do that. To ask someone to spend the rest of their life with you. I mean, it's very very bold. I almost threw up trying to spit such a sentence out lol. But it was pretty kool getting a "Yea, sure, definitely". I can somewhat understand why it would be a bit bad to hear, "I have to think about it." or "I'm not ready yet." lol There is one thing that is a bit crazy for my week though, and you all know, from previous posts, that something "strange" does happen to me. Or maybe, I take it as strange. His mother called me a few days ago but I missed the call. So, I get the voice message and I hear, "Hey Izzi, it's ma. ......." Ma?! Ma. What's this foreign term !?!!!!?!? Is she calling me child!? Her child? Her daughter-in-law!!?!!!!!!??!?? Here I go over thinking again. Much of what you readers may not know of me, my mother is no longer around. Hasn't been for a while so me and the term do not really.... understand or know each other very well. So hearing a woman call me this can freak me out insanely. ok.... maybe only 10 minutes BUT STILL!!!

N e poop, I'm excited! It's Friday tomorrow, it's going to rain and I get to enjoy a nice looooooonnnng weekend! I've been enjoying the thought of working to better my life somehow. And to create an even better life for me and a fatman. But then again, I'm trying not to look ahead but it's better than thinking about my past and dealing with my present issues. I know this is why I read my crappy romances. To see someone else's life go through ONE struggle, ONE relationship quarrel and ONE marriage for their entire life to live happily ever after. I think everyone lives happily ever after. Well.... that's my post.

Question to you all: What's the best date you ever been on with your former or current SO?

Guys with this girl thing of ours....

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 18:29:56 GMT

**** FAIR WARNING TO THE MALES THAT MAY READ THIS. THIS DOES HAVE EXPRESSION OF MENSTRUAL CYCLES ****

So, I will admit, I am a baby when I get my luvly Aunty Flo every couple of months. Thanks to Seasonique it's only every 3. But I do not get the normal cramp here and there. I get dehydration, vomiting, sweats and passing out here and there for one whole day. Now, I will admit, I myself hate it. Hate it to the point where I don't mind getting a hysterectomy. Yes.... that much. I don't like dealing with it. Missing work cause of it, asking or pleading for some type of help for it. Feeling helpless from it. Not being able to take normal advil or mydol cause of it. Just can't stand it.

Problem being, every guy I've dated didn't care. Just let me get sick and now and then call to check up. Now to have this one in my life is a bit different. Bring the gatorade, puke bucket, drags to the ER if needed. All that luvly crap. But hates hearing the theory of a hysterectomy. Now what's in my head is, why are you mad at this. This is an actual cure. The other option is to have a kid. My family has this problem too and this is what has worked for them to stop it. I don't like the thought of the last option so it's not going down. Every guy would throw a party at the fact of girl not wanting kids, or at least a good majority of them. He though, is placing bets on me and him making it that far. As you all know of me so far, I'm still in the shock mode of a guy lasting this long and betting on it with me. Plus, really fighting on me with the thought of kids. I mean really!!!! I'm not ready or willing to share my life with a child. I don't like them honestly, please call me whatever you'd like. But I don't find them appealing. Cute and all yes, but I'm selfish with my life and not ready to give up mine.

My fatman understands this but he believes that my mind will change. That's fine. He could believe that if he'd like. But who's to say he'll wait for that day to happen. I'm not one to put my hopes up on stuff cause of it either. It's just.... there this great guy, caring, helpful, wants the American family dream. But I'm going through all these bad routes and you see that I'm finding other ways of getting out of your dream for my selfish reasons, why hang on to the hope? We agree to live for the now cause we're not guaranteed tomorrow, but he'll throw out the thoughts of, "Don't be surprised if I put a small box on you're desk at work and walk away." or "Even if we don't make it, I'm going to have a kid with you." ??!?!!!?!?!!!!???!?!??***?*&?&&?????!?!?@#?#@?#?$#?$?@??????? I'm not one for hope but I get a bit excited and angry. I'm happy to know someone will want these things with, it's flattering, but I'm not for putting the hope up so don't do it or say it. Excuse for him: "I can't help it. It's how I feel."

Maybe I'm just ranting because of my girl issues, but really am I going mad people!?!!?! Does this seem crazy?!

AND P.S. - THANK YOU SOOOO SOOOOO MUCH FOR ALL THE OPINIONS AND REVIEWS!!!! I APPRECIATE IT! THIS IS HELPFUL IN MANY WAYS AND I LUV THE THOUGHT OF BEING ABLE TO EXPRESS MY MADNESS AND GETTING SOME TYPE OF UNDERSTANDING FROM EVERYONE.

Another Single Saturday Night

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 22:30:56 GMT

Though I am in a relationship, I call it single because I feel like I am. Most of my friends are busy somewhat and my other friends either "can't come out" or just are too lazy. Also, I do like going out on my own. One thing I would suggest if you ever do go visit NYC, go to 42nd st on a Saturday night by yourself. Believe me when I tell you, you won't feel lonely at all lolol I luv walking around, getting a beef patty at the Port Authority and a pretzel from Aunt Anne's and then some Jamba and then a movie. It's just relaxing to me. I mean, yea, all the crowding is annoying BUT I know my short cuts so believe me when I say, I do have fun on my own. Then tomorrow I'm going to do my hair and get ready for my first day at work on Monday. Am I nervous, no. But, I am ready because this is my first step on working on moving out and getting my luvly life on track. As for my fatman, he works on these days, that's fine as well. I can accept that and I wouldn't want it any other way. He's doing him and I'm doing me. Sure we have our nights out. I enjoy them just as much as any other person. But sometimes I wish we had those normal working schedules. I mean, this new job is giving me that, so if he could get one then I think we could have more of those.

No questions today. Just a randomn post. BUT you all know I'll have a question sometime this week. Have a great weekend ya'll, I will!

His mom and him are close... whoa....

Mon, 08 Sep 2008 17:04:02 GMT

I want to start this off by saying that I do have some parental problems but I will always give anyone else's parent the most utmost respect in the world. Now my thing is, him and his mom have a decently close relationship. They talk about everything going on in their lives. Including me sometimes. Now I will never fight with him in front of her. Whatever OUR problems are should be known to us. In the street I don't care cause they're strangers and don't matter to me. But her, never. Now the other problem would be, since they talk about everything, is HE talking to her about our fights and does she look at me in a different light every time I see her? This makes me wonder if she thinks of me as this crazy girl that fights with her son but "seems" so nice in front of her. Now I know she doesn't care a lot of the time but I wonder if it bothers her. I know I'm wrong a lot of the time and I wonder if she knows that I know this.

My question for the world, do you guys ever think that your SO's parent may look at you differently at times but fake it to be nice? Do parents take sides on their children's relationships? Do you think your SOs parents take sides when they know you're fighting? Weird question I know, but it makes sense.

Is there a quitter in yours?

Sat, 30 Aug 2008 02:35:51 GMT

Once again, my negative aura messed up not only my evening and my bf's but my cellphone as well. Last night I was watching The Moment of Truth and I asked my bf if you could give a cubic zirconian to someone and lie to them saying it's a diamond would you? He asked why and I said it's just a question nothing to crazy on it just an answer would be cool. Well there started our blow out which wasn't too great but by the end of the night my phone was thrown at the radiator and the whole thing just broke apart along with the screen. I have an anger management problem. I've known that for 5 years now. That's not my issue. My issue is, if I can acknowledge it and give you fair warning to just give this up now cause I might not be getting better at directing it anytime soon wouldn't you take it and run?! I am the quitter in this relationship. If things get horrible tough and difficult I feel as though I should save him and run away. He thinks I'm rediculous but I have messed up many relationships and friendships before so I am a bit wary with this one. I'm trying to stop being this way and I'm a lot better than last year lol. But I wonder.... is there a quitter in every relationship? Is there someone always a bit hesitant and ready to quit more than the other. I feel like a guy cause of this from what I know. But who knows.... Help. Than again, I'm grateful and I'll figure it out.